Author: Samira R
It was snowy like that night, but the difference is now we are in a forest. The sun is rising. You are lying on the leaves, not looking at me but staring at the sky. I kneel beside you, reaching my hand to touch your face, but you suddenly say:
“It is near. I should go.”
“What?”
“He is waiting for me.”
“Who?”
“A man, he is looking at me.”
I look around, but no one is here. I think you are in pain and talking nonsense.
“No, the ambulance is coming, just endure.”
You finally look at me and say:
“It is not something like that. Everything was a mistake, and now it is over, Mia. The angel is here. Goodbye, Mia.”
My hand is red with your blood. We are in the forest. The sun is in the sky now, so I can see how much blood you have lost. And like you said, everything was a mistake. You were a criminal, and I shot you.
I remember the first time I saw you. You were another officer. I could get along well with you because we had the same kind of humor, but I always felt you were different. So when my boss told me I should arrest you because you killed someone, you confessed you killed a man who killed your daughter.
So, I found you in our favorite spot in the forest. You were alone without a gun. I told you that you better give up and come with me. Maybe they would reduce the punishment. But you just laughed and attacked me, so I shot you in your leg. And now we are here. The ambulance couldn’t come sooner because the snow was strong.
“There is no angel, Stefan.”
“Yeah, there is. You will see it too when the time comes, but not now, my love.”
I take your hand and say I am sorry. And just when the cars finally come, you close your eyes. I wished to myself you hadn’t left me just like that. It is not funny. But why are you smiling?
Mia can’t see me now, but I am not mad. I shouldn’t have started anything with her. I knew I was dark and had a monster in my heart, but I loved her so much that I started talking with her and became part of her life.
I asked the angel, “Can I see her sometimes?”
“You are not as bad as you think, so yeah, you can see her sometimes. But she will never know.”
I smiled and said, “Yeah, that’s enough.”